Rachael Kirkconnell Reveals She and Ex Matt James Talked About Starting a Family Before Split: ‘Sucks More Than Anything’

Rachael Kirkconnell and Matt James attend Variety, The New York Party, at Loosie’s Nightclub on October 05, 2023 in New York City. Photo:

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Rachael Kirkconnell and ex-boyfriend Matt James talked about the possibility of starting a family before their split.

On the Tuesday, Jan. 28 episode of Alex Cooper’s Call Her Daddy, the former Bachelor contestant, 28, opened up about losing the picture of a future she created with James. She admitted that during their four years together, the former couple used to talk about raising children and starting a family. Letting go of that vision for her future, she says is “one of the saddest things” about her split.

“We talked about family and kids more than anything,” Kirkconnell said, noting that part of the breakup “sucks more than anything.”

“You picture your life or you have an idea of what it’s gonna look like, and now I’m like, I have no idea what life looks like from here on out,” she continued. “I’m like picturing these kids that are obviously no longer a thing, which kinda sounds crazy.”

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James announced his split with Kirkconnell, who won his final rose on season 25 of the popular franchise, on Instagram on Thursday, Jan. 16.

“Father God, give Rachael and I strength to mend our broken hearts,” he wrote in the caption of the post that showed the two of them holding hands when they first met on the show. “Give us a peace about this decision to end our relationship that transcends worldly understanding. Shower our friends and family with kindness and love to comfort us. And remind us that our Joy comes from you, Lord 💔.”

Rachael Kirkconnell. Call Her Daddy/YouTube

Kirkconnell told Cooper that she was on a flight when she found out the news.

“Literally the plane is taking off and I see his post, and that’s it,” she said. “I don’t have any service or anything for the next 12 hours, so I’m freaking out because, you know, just got broken up with, and now, a few hours later, it’s for the whole world to see and I’m still trying to process it.”

“I’m still in total shock,” she confessed. “I think that’s why I didn’t say anything. Still haven’t made a statement or anything because I’m processing this just like everyone else is.”

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